Believing in a bening universe

It is the middle of the holidays, literally. But I am tired. Or, am I supposed to be tired? Confusion comes to me everyday. I want to believe my thoughts even though I already know they are not true. Not true at all. For instance, here I am only wanting to believe that all I am right now is tired when in reality we had wonderful days with Judy and her family. I almost got to forget that these were actually the holidays. Then, we arrived home last night and it sort of hit me again. I have got to go to sleep. No more thoughts. No more thoughts. Or, no more paying attention to thoughts. I can just see them pass by and notice....maybe.