One-second-one, two-second-two

....as this applies to patience...I often think that the most necessary thing (skill) to learn in life is...patience...and at school? biology, not math. I had math every single year that I attended school (in Mexico) from first grade until high school. I now think I should have had biology or science.

Fall as in falling

More like in the weather not in going down. I like fall. It is a season that I recognize early on even before the weather really changes. I noticed our first cold (more as in cool and not freezing) night last night. It was very nice to go under the covers with my children. Actually, it is a moment of the day that I really look forward to. Here in the dessert it gets cold at night and somewhat warm, maybe even hot, during the day. It is a strange combination of temperatures. My hair sometimes react by being "flightly" it separates in thin strands or it looses its weight completely, hence the word flightly. My skin gets dry but not uncomfortably dry. I apply moisturizer and feels better immediately.

And, my mind wants to think hard. I go into an inward exploration so, it is easy to question my thoughts and decide what has to go and not crowd my life.

Meaning

The main purpose of this blog is to allow myself a place to speak out. Like a diary. I don't have any other agenda. I just want to talk, I mean write. Mostly to give me a space to question my thoughts.

My son, who is 2 years and 7 months, doesn't speak with words although he does communicate. He points to, pulls and pushes me to get what he needs. However, this situation has/is making me re-think all I know. I question my thinking one hundred or one million times a day.

He should be speaking turns around (almost immediately, which may not be very helpful) into I should be speaking and communicating more effectively and do I? And, how do I feel when I think he should be speaking? Where does it feel in my body? It feels in my heart and I begin imagining he will never speak. Then, I realize how untrue is this thought. He will be who he is with or without my approval.

finding words

Thus, here I am. I finally did it. This blog is my attempt at communicating better. I am going to hit the button now to see how this looks.